Still not the glorious spring green I had expected back on Ash Wednesday. That was when I wrote about how I wanted to spend my Lenten season, especially in light of the fact that I had barely gotten through Advent with my sanity. I wanted Lent to be different. In an effort to close that line of thought, let me share how it really went:
- Spiritual Discipline: We made it almost all of the mid-week Lenten services, as well as the Maundy Thursday and Good Friday services. I'm very, very glad we added that to our schedule, even though it felt like too much at times. The Wednesday services were a reminder and a quiet respite, and even the kids liked going. Good Friday may be my favorite service of the year. AND I have generally kept up with my morning devotions. Generally.
- Physical Discipline: Total Fail. I need to re-read Why We Get Fat, which I think I said earlier. Gary Taubes' idea is that carbs make you fat. Maybe not you, but they make ME fat. And they keep me from sleeping and give me stomachaches. It's all true. And while I've never gone back to bread unless it surrounds a Chick-fil-A sandwich, and I hardly eat potatoes, sugar is another story. So this is a fail. Especially with the Easter candy that now floats around my house, and into my mouth...
- A book: Complete and utter fail. I wanted to read Bonhoeffer. I still haven't. Haven't even put it on my Kindle. Only 3/4 of the way through Les Miserables, for good measure, which I have been reading off and on since around Christmas. (That book has the interesting quality of being put-off-able, meaning that I can set it down and pick it up two weeks later and understand exactly what is going on and yet somehow not feel one bit bad about leaving it aside for a while.)
I did, however, read Mike Breen's Building a Discipling Culture, as a result of my unexpected trip to Pawley's Island. Given its subject matter--doing things the way Jesus did them in His earthly ministry--this book is almost a substitute. And it was a great book to read, to boot! (If you want to read a wonderful and inspiring story about an English minister, go here.)
One out of three. That is a failing grade! No spinning this--maybe I just aimed too high for Lent. Nah. But I did find some peace, and I wonder if I didn't make at least a little more room for God in my life.
Someday those leaves will be green. Someday soon. And I'll keep trying to make room, and make peace.